My Creator Story: Maybe This Time I'll Finish

I've always been someone who starts things.

Earlier this year, I tried Unity modding. I learned, I built, I got somewhere; but I couldn't close the gap between "in progress" and "done." It stayed unfinished, like so many projects before it.

I've tried creating in Second Life, VRChat, Vroid, countless wrestling game character creators. But nothing stuck. Either the tools fought me, or it never felt like it was truly mine.

Then in October, I started making clothing in Horizon Worlds.

And something was different. I got addicted immediately. For the first time in a long time, I wasn't just starting something;

I was finishing pieces. Designing them, releasing them, watching people actually wear what I made.

Creating clothing made me want more. I wanted a place to sell from. So I'm building a store now ; but if I'm honest, it's becoming something bigger. The store is an excuse. What I'm really building is a world. Fiction and worldbuilding have always been my strengths, and I'm quietly weaving that into every corner of this project.

The problem is: I'm doing this completely alone. I've always wanted to program, but my brain doesn't work well with code or math. I'm shy about meeting new people and even worse at maintaining relationships, so finding a partner or collaborator feels impossible right now.

But I'm still going. I broke out my iPad and Apple Pencil and started drawing again. I'm learning scripting even though it doesn't come naturally. I'm making slow progress toward something I can't fully picture yet.

I don't know what the finished version will look like. But for the first time in a while, I think I might actually close the door on something and call it complete.

Maybe this time is different.

https://www.facebook.com/BlackObsidianProtocol/